Monday, December 21, 2009

...line...


Well, It is certainly my winter break but I am currently not home yet. I am in Marysville babysitting for my sister and brother in law. Hey I love it, because I haven't seen them and hung out with them for a long time now. Besides that, I got the whole Yuba Sutter youth to hang out with as well. Oooo..and I can't forget the Simpson students from Yuba, Marysville, Linda...: Jamie, Rebecka, Zong(Jason), Thunder, Ming, Tom, Tracy, Panouly, and Amanda. hmm...am I missing anyone..? So yeah, Christmas is closing in! Merry Christmas To all and remember folks, we are His Beloved!!

Sunday, December 13, 2009

..slanif..


YAY! Now that ain't the word you'll be saying if you just flunked or bombed your final tests. Other words such as, "Yes Bro, I totally nailed that test in Anatomy or Philosophy sounds much better right!? Well, let us see how you'll do on your exams.

Dead week just passed by, and now it is finals week. Students planning their holiday trips, getting airlines tickets checked out, ordering greyhound tickets, and gassing up their car for the long hour drive home. Everyone is getting something down some where some how. Most importantly, all the students are quite and studious right now in every section of the library. The whole dormitory looks and sounds dead, dead just like an old hunted house film. The center of the school is filled with late fall fallen leaves and the squirrels are gathering their last food supply for the winter. luckily there are not any snow yet.

So pray for everyone for these last days of school. May everyone enjoy their winter break and Merry Christmas to all!

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Hlub Koj

Kuv hais rau koj, Kuv hlub Koj
Es Kuv yuas tuas Koj tes, mus ib txhim
Yuav Hlub koj, nyob nrog nraim koj
Mus ib txhim!

Kuv qhia rau koj hais thias
Tus tswv yeej tuas koj tes mus ib txhim
Yuav hulb koj, nyob nros nrias koj
Mus ib txis!

..gniog..


Around me there are different types of smell, and fragrance? Funny thing is how I can almost know every little smell and distinguish them. haha. The first smell that I can recognize right away is the Mama noodles. Then to the Febreze house spray, some of the fruits, and the newly washed laundry basket that is across the room.

What are you able to smell right now?

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

..kaerb..

..Heading out to Crescent City this Thanksgiving break to help lead a Praise and Worship night for the Crescent City Hmong C&MA Church! whoot whoot, I can't wait to go and lead people to worshiping God together as a family. I know that this is Jesus' ministry and not ours. This time, I won't be home to celebrate Thanksgiving with my family for the 3rd time. I know she is disappointed in me and will love it if I was home to join the Family this Holiday season. But hey, there's Christmas that is coming along quickly. Family, they are always there for you, whenever, however, and forever!

Friday, November 13, 2009

...OD...

Learning how to write in Hmoob better this year. I think I am getting better and better this year because of the the help from Chao and keem. Both of them are teaching me how to write better and pronounce Hmoob words better. I need to learn how to write in Hmoob fluently because I will use it in the future. Especially in the ministry field working with Hmoob Churches or people...sighs...I know God will empower me and gift me the ability to speak and write in my language.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

..more..

There is nothing I can do, O God. There is nothing more I can ask of you God. You have given me more than I need. A ever lasting love that showers me all day. Blessings that are poured out with no hesitant. So I will praise you God the father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit. Amen.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

..today..

TODAY

Today I have been blessed
Today we will not let this pass
What is this? This is our time
Our time to show that we are real
Our time to show that God is real
He is working in us
As well as through us
Be the center of us God
Be the leader of us
The night has come for us to separate
The night will not let me hesitate
Because I know that you will pray for me
And I will pray for you.
I will always be by your side!

..efil..

"The logic of individualism, of living a life devoted to self-perfection and personal vindication, is finally--and paradoxically suicidal"


Charles Colson
Author of "The Good Life"

Friday, October 16, 2009

..wen..

I just got my first laptop!!!! YES!!!
HP Tv3 something..ahha...sighs...thank
you God..All praise and glory to you O
Lord.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

..ekam..

What has made me, is caring for me.
The path that I choose from here on,
will determine who I am.
O God, my creator your Love
is what I depend on.
Even though I call onto you with
my own iniquity at hand you still love me.
All for you, O God who loves abundantly
and gives it freely.
I am nothing if I did not have you O God.
O Lord, my savior and redeemer who has died
for me on the cross, I will come and give you praise daily.
I will come with my pains and suffering for I know that you
are the one who is the greatest doctor and healer.
May you use me to the end of my days, so that your kingdom may
overflow with your children.
I am here and suffering O God, I will still praise you for who
are because I am all yours.
Who am I to say that I am my own.
Woe to whom says that and may you forgive them O sovereign and
loving God.
Our own ways have taken us out from yours.
Our shame has brought us down, to where our eyes are not relying
on you anymore O Lord.
My will is in hunger to praise you and please you Father.
O my soul has more to earn and more to learn.
But I know with your great wisdom, guidance, and love you will
provide a way for me to know you, and love you deeper each day.
God, I will continue to serve you even with this disease that have.
Gout will go out form this body one day.
I have Gout, but Gout does not have me!
All praise and glory to the most high!

Sunday, September 27, 2009

..Smell..

As I walk to the front gates of the fairground and reaches in for my wallet, I can already smell the fresh cooked bb-q meat that is probably sizzling and getting the people hungry as they walk inside the festival. Getting inside the gates was not as hard as I thought it was going to be. There was no security in the front making sure that there were any gangsterish guys entering the Hmong New Year festival. I did notice that there was a guy that stood far away from the front gates watching everyone coming in and he was dressed like an security guard.
But I am not certain that he is a trained professional guard because he did have any source of defense on him. All he had was a walkie talkie, green security guard pants and shirt. He didn't seem to scare me at all if I was involve in a fight, and if he was suppose to be running to catch me..ahah..But, I will not ever be involve in any street fights. O.k, so the Chico youth and Simpson folks was going to pick up cans and plastic bottles so that we can all recycle them and get some money for the youth group in Chico. Moving towards the crowds in my Hmong clothing and swiveling my Hmong necklace(Hmong bling), making sure that my pants was not touching the ground, picking up every plastic bottle in every direction was hard work because the Sun would not let us rest.
After a few hours of hard work and satisfying refreshments, we all took a rest in the gymnasium and watched the performers perform their acts and talents. Sitting around and listening to the love songs, Hmong riddles, couples, family, and our guys and gals there, made me think about Church service, if there was going to be any possibility that we were able to reach out to this much people. What if church service looked like this? What if...what if we were able to preach and lead these people to Christ, to God..! sighs...it made me think so much that when it was time to go back and pick more cans and bottles the thought went away. But now I can remember that gut feeling when I saw that so many people was so interested in the Hmong festival.
What if we introduced them all to Christ..I wonder how they react?? A few hours into picking up more cans and water bottles, the whole team was really exhausted and tired.so they all took a rest but not Zong and I. We decided to go all around the whole fairground and check out all the bins and garbage dumps once more. Gathering all the bags full with cans and water bottles was easy and quick because we had Da's tacoma pickup truck and we all loaded the trucks bed liner in no time. Rushing towards the buffet restaurant and stuffing our stomachs with food and drinking tons of H2o from the hot fall heat.
Coming back from Chico and riding i the back of car was new to me. I never sat in hte back of my truck before and this was my first time. Sitting in the back and trying to catch the breeze coming in from the outside was soothing. I had my pillow in my hands and I fell asleep instantly when I lay my head on it. Waking up to the conversation of Thunder and Zong had me up and ready for our destination, Simpson University!! Coming back to compass and noticing that I am back for a reason made me realize that I really need to focus on my ministry more and more. Recognizing my life's purpose and reasons to be living I stared back into the sky and thank God for His Love, His Son, and the Holy Spirit.
Noticing all that can happen, and having such a big vision, and especially going through obstacles in life made me think and realize that everything that I do i life, has to be for God and not for myself. Acknowledging that who is my creator, who is the one that gave life, breathe, love, and family/friends to lean onto. Many great things and event has happen in my life, and there were many bad things, but am still thankful for every event, drama, problems, situations, and obstacle that God was with me at all time. Recognizing and allowing God to work within us, and especially asking Him to empower us and bless because that is what He wants us to do. To ask Him! To PRAY!! Knowing this sudden rush of realization, I know that I really have be committed to fulfilling my education here at Simpson University. Prayerfully, and being faithful to God at all time and costs.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

..emoc..

come and see what i have for you
thought it is not much of what you may think what it ought to be
listen, and hear the sounds of joy
sit, and rest alongside with me
talk, talk to me and pray
catch, I'll catch you when you fall
rise, and see that you are back up again
you were never forgotten
and I have always prayed for you
love that does not envy
this that i have for you
I do not ask back from you

Friday, September 25, 2009

..ease..

As the face of the earth reveals its true identity
Your love flows into every single heart
When the child is beaten and in despair
You cover them with your loving hands

and as the sun shines through every person's life
may the moon guide them through their lonely nights

Whatever your dealing with
in the past or future
call Him by name
call Him to your rescue
GOD reigns on hide

and with outstretch arms, God catches you
so hold on tight and don't let go
for the one who you are holding onto, will never let go
know that He is always Loving, loving so that we can love too

Friday, September 18, 2009

..this..

People seem to reveal their most undesirable moments so easily to people to recognize. Yet, they don't even bother trying to fix up their life. We all have been hit big, I mean BIG BIG with major crisis and life changing moments. People have tried their best to prove to their love ones positively and by doing this they lose so much. whatever the circumstances are, people seem to forget the choices they have made in life, and especially commitment that they have set up for their self. But I suppose this is the lack of not being able to understand that God is in control. Not just that, but that we, you, everyone is putting God before we even make a decision in life. Praying and asking God to come into out life situation. Asking God to come and deliver us from whatever we are going through in our life. God has so much blessings that, when we ask for it He will give it with no hesitation. God really wants all of us to ask Him, and seek His will. His will is His words, His way, and crucially, His Love.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

..into..

..Into a new semester we all begin..
..Doing our very best to strive effortlessly..
..Maintaining our goals and dreams..
..And letting God be in control of Me..

..Into a new chapter of life we begin..
..Showing others our best..
..Not complaining and be humble..
..knowing that we will surely get to rest..

..Into a new Begging we all thought..
..Slowing down our every way..
..Lord, Hold my hands wherever you go..
..And may your name, O God, be Praised..

Friday, July 31, 2009

..Koup Koun Prak Yexus..

Koup Koun Prak Yexus..us..us..us
Mon kaun rah ke row
Koup koun prak yexus..us..us..us
Sum prak koum mas me..summ prak koun mas me

Rao plein seing wrong slah seun praknam
Wrong slah seun more tana
Prak oon bein took sieng..bein took sieng..bein took sieng
Pein prak cao koun rao

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

..To Work With End..

To start the summer off, Daniel had decided to quit his daily Job at Chuck E Cheese and continue his education out of town. He knew exactly what he wanted to do for God and what God wanted him to do. Pastoral Studies and minoring in Mission was what Daniel was majoring in. The summer had begun with lots of spontaneous activities with his local church youth and Daniel was involved in many position. He helped the praise and worship team, taught Sunday School to the kids for a month, then to the high school kids for a month. Daniel's mom knew exactly what she wanted him to do before going to school. Daniel himself was afraid and was not sure too. Before he had decided on attending Simpson university he had already applied to Spartan College of Aeronautics which is in Tulsa, Oklahoma. He really wanted to be a Missionary Pilot because he wanted to become a Missionary, and also a Pilot. Spartan College of Aeronautics had two representatives come to Daniel's house and talk to him and his mom about he school. Daniel did not tell his mom that the two representatives were coming and his mom had already disagreed about going to school of the state.
Daniel was disparate, eager, and had rely on his own understanding and well, not God's. The two representatives came and chatted with Daniel and his mom and while they were chatting, Daniel's mom shed out some tears, tears of worry and sorrow that Daniel was going to go off so far for school. Daniel, the eldest son in the family, had to make a wise choice. It was either Simpson University which was in California, or Spartan College of Aeronautics in Oklahoma. He knew that he had made his mom cried, and this was not the first time, but he second time. He did not want to make her cry anymore. The next tears that she will shed will be at his graduation ceremony at Simpson University "Happy Tears." After the visitation from the two guys that came from Spartan College, Daniel prayed a simple prayer to God asking Him: "O God, whoever that shall call me or accept me first to their college is where I will go to Amen." Three weeks has gone by and Simpson University was the first to call him and inform him that they have accepted him into their school.
Months of preparations and paper works came to a stop in month of August. Daniel was ready for college out of town. Countless times has he prayed for this opportunity from God, and countless times has he prayed for guidance into this Major. It was time to leave and no one was home except his mom, a nephew, and a niece. They took pictures as he packed his truck with his personal items, blankets, computer, and miscellaneous items. He finally said Goodbye to his widow mom, niece, and nephew. The only thing in his mind was, "God, be with my family, take care of them and I know you will. Help my mom stay strong and healthy."
It was not soon when Daniel had arrived at Jack's place and his other friend Eric was to be there so that three of them could drive together to school each in their own car. The time has come and they all took off for school in Redding, California which was 3 1/2 hours away from where they live. Time was nothing for the three and the got to school in flash. The drive to school was some what pleasing and not. Traffic found its way around the three and especially the hot summer heat that attacked them endlessly during the drive to school. None of the had a/c inside their cars. Well, Jack did but his was not cold enough to satisfy him so he did not use it at all. Orientation was not hard but very long and the eagerness to get his room and settle in was like a person out of breath seeking for air.
Daniel's roommates were no other than Eric himself, Eric's younger brother, and fella named Alpha. Daniel moved in everything as quick as possible because Eric and his younger brother had already taken the other side of the dorm and what was left was the right side wing of room. Daniel decided to get the window and let Alpha get the wall section closes to the door. Settling in the room was not hard because, the school had already assigned upper classmates to help the new students carry their belongings and luggage to their room. That the first day of school for Daniel. The second day was the day to meet all the people on campus, and especially getting to know all the other Hmong students in the school was his plan. He had met some Hmong students from last school year but not the transfers and Freshmen. Daniel knew that he was just going to make new friends and that was the line, nothing else.
After meeting all the wonderful people in the school, the student body President of the school had made some few events for the new students to attend. There were hangouts, parties, hoe-down, team building, and games for everyone that was new at the school. That second day of school, something did catch Daniel's eyes. It was a Girl whom he knew he wanted to become friends with but nothing else, or nothing more. Daniel wanted to make sure nothing will come into his way of accomplishing his Pastoral degree. The most important part of all was that, Daniel will not forget the reason why He is there at the school.
Days went by and he had talked with this girl for some time now. The first day they talked was about school and their passion for God. Second time they met was inside the Cafeteria, and they ate together, just a little distant from each other. Third time they met, was when Her boy-friend came to visit her. He could not take it in this time because Daniel did not know not ask if she was single or not. But he knew that God had something better for him in the future. Someone that is as patient as he was fro twenty one years. Yes, Daniel have never dated anyone for twenty one years. The boy-friend had come at a unexpected time, and unexpectedly the Girl and Daniel became friends eventually. Just within one week into school, the Girl had told Daniel that she had already broken up with him and she is single but is searching to be closer to God. She told Daniel that they had been off and on for a long time and both their parents did not approve off them dating but, because they had been dating for so long now, the parents could not do anything to stop them anymore. But now She had come to realize that she has grown away from God.
Daniel knew that he wanted to pursue her at this time, but slowly and wisely. He did not want to make it too noticeable to the Hmong community in the school so he only told his dorm buddies. Eric's younger brother and Daniel were much more closer than Eric himself and Alpha was still a new friend to Daniel. Daniel was more open to Eric's younger brother named Ryan. Ryan and Daniel had been friends for a long time now, much longer than Eric too. Ryan suggested that Daniel wait and see if the Girl is ready because she has been with her ex for three years. Daniel could not stand silent and wanted a quick response from her. Daniel decided to go and talk with the Girl's sister named Becky. Becky suggested to Daniel that he wait as well because she is not sure is her sister is ready for another relationship. So Daniel took in all their advices and waited for three months. He maintained their friendship and did not show any sign of pursuance to her.
Summer has gone away and winter began early this year. Midterm tests were already taken and everyone on campus was ready for the winter break. Daniel knew that he had to make a move on his own so he asked Ryan to go and talk with the Girl. He wanted Ryan to ask her if she was interested in anyone, and if she was ready for another relationship? Ryan did, and she replied back: "Yes, she is ready to move on, No she does not want to be in a relationship yet!" Ryan came back to Daniel and told him her answers. Ryan suggests that Daniel tells her how he feels for her. That was exactly what Daniel did the following night.
It was like magic or something, or God intended for it to happen. The following night Becky and the other Hmong girls wanted to go to the Dam in Redding. The night was soothing and calm, no wind or sign of retreat from the guys and gals that night. Tehy were certain that the small gathering at the dam was going to take place. Word got by to Daniel saying that there was going to be a small hang out out in the dam and almost everyone of the Hmong community was going. Daniel took the chance to ask the Girl if she wanted to go. She was uncertain, but right when she knew that her sister and girl friends were going also she made up her mind quickly to go.
What took place next, was something that Daniel had never done in his lifetime and wished that it was going to be the first and last. Ryan had made some few arrangements and Daniel was able to meet up with the Girl at the dam and they were all alone. Daniel and the Girl spent some time talking about school and finally, finally Daniel had enough courage to ask Her if it was ok if He told her something. The Girl replied: Yes! and Daniel spelled out all his feelings for her. At the end, he told her that he does not expect her to fall into this relationship right away but for her to know that He really like her and is interested in her. Daniel also told her that he know that she had recently came out of a three year relationship and it is not easy for her to let everything go so quick. She reply to him saying: "I am not ready for a relationship, but this bond, this friendship that we have I can allow to continue."
Daniel knew that his chance with this girl was a 50/50 chance. It was going to be Thanksgiving break and both of them were going to back to their home town. Winter had arrived already and it was only Thanksgiving. There were no sign of snow because where the two lived it did not snow at all. Central valley was where the two lived, just 1 1/2 drive if they wanted to see each other. But, that story was unpleasing when one night after Thanksgiving the Girl that Daniel liked called him and told him that they should not continue this friendship that was going to lead into something in the future. She just wanted to be friends him and nothing else, nothing more. Three months, and it was going down he drain all of a sudden. Daniel agreed, the Girl said she was sorry, and goodbye was the last word he heard from her on the phone. Thanksgiving break was only two weeks, and two weeks for Daniel was short because he did not want to go back to school to see the Girl. But he has no choice and school was starting again, winter break ended.
Coming back to school knowing that the person you use to talk to all the time was no longer going to be there next to you on your way to class was not going to be there next to you was hard for Daniel. His roommates knew what happen because he would not talk to anyone about what had happen during the break and he avoided hr as well. All their friends knew that something was wrong and all of them wanted to help because it was going to ruin their friends relationship if the two of them was going to keep avoiding each other. Daniel knew that he would be strong because he was the pursuer and not her. the Girl finally gave in and wanted to work things out. She told Daniel that she will be willing to work things out again and if Daniel will too? Daniel agreed, and forgave her.
They both hung out again, talking, walking, eating, and studying together. All of their friends were happy to see that they were happy again together, but not yet a couple. The first semester had gone by quick just like the three months, and Daniel did not want it to end just he like the Thanksgiving break. School started in September 2, 2008 and it was already December, Winter break which was two weeks also. Daniel did not want to doubt that the Girl might over think the situation and go home and the same thing might happen again. So, Daniel prayed night and day and finally Winter break came and they all left home. What a unpleasing story to begin writing because the same exact thing happen when the Girl got home this time. Her ex-boyfriend is from the same town, not too far away and they attend the same church as well. The Girl and Daniel had a talk the night after Christmas. She told him almost the same exact words the first time when she called him in Thanksgiving break to break up their bond. She told Daniel that she wants to be friends this time and she was going to stay true to her words. Daniel, like always, agreed and forgave her.
Christmas break came by quick and this time Daniel wanted the break to end fast so that he could go back to school and start the new semester strong with no distractions. New classed and new schedules were made. There was only one problem, the Girl and Him have a class together. Danie, no difference from the first break up avoided her like usual and none of their friends did not like it this time either, even more! They thought that the two were heading some where and that they might of had something in common. But they were wrong and they knew they had to stay out from this one. Daniel continued to avoid Her strictly, this time. This means no contact, no eye contact, no conversations, no nothing with her.
Like the first time, the Girl was not able to stay true nor strong to her words because it is just words that are from human beings. She was not able to bare the feelings inside of her any longer and wanted to let Daniel know that she cares for him too and that she likes him as well. Days went by and Daniel seems to be care free about her. But Daniel knew deep inside of him, he forgives her, and is willing to accept her back just like how God forgives us and accepts us back every time we sin. The Girl went to a couple guys and gals for advice and they helped her gain her courage to go and talk with Daniel. Becky, the girl's older sister gave a call to Daniel asking him if would not mind talking to her Sister again because she really wants to talk to him. Daniel agreed and they meet up that night under the school cross. They talked, and talked, and talked about the situation and how they both were going to stand their grounds and stay true to theirs words. After the agreements had been made, Daniel sealed the conversation and promise with a prayer.
A month into school, Daniel built enough courage and ideas how to ask the Girl out. He wrote four letters, placed them on certain spots, and each letters led to the next letter leading her to a pond where Daniel wanted her to pray and wait for his arrival. Daniel finally got to her and sat next to her on the swing bench which was in the gazebo, next to the pond in campus. The swing bench was facing the south side section of their school and they both stared off to the mountains surrounding Simpson Univerisity. Daniel got on his left knee next to her and asked her, "Would you like to be my Grilfriend?" The girl giggled and said, "Get off your knees, you don't have to propose to me." So Daniel went back up to set next to her and took her hands and ask her again. She said Yes! They hung out, cuddled, and looked at each other and smiled.
The semester was coming close to a end. Their first year at Simpson Univerisity was about to announced official. They were a couple now. What else more can you ask from God? Nothing because he gives you everything you'll need in life when the right time comes for Him to give it to you. In Daniel's case, it did come, and then it left him. She broke up with him during the second week into the summer break. He forgave her, but it was really hard for him to let her go because she was his first girlfriend, first kiss, and first love. He knew that God was in control, and it had happen for a reason.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

..hey..

God, my gout pain is killing me. But I know that you are here with me and is holding my hands through these tough times. Your Son, Lord Jesus Christ has paid the price for all of humanity to be free. God, your holy spirit dwells in all of us. God, you are all knowing, all merciful, always forgiving, and all loving! Father, I pray and thank you for this life that you have given me. To live for you, and to serve you with all that I have. Even though all that I have is yours God, may you use me, teach me, guide me, and take me to the finishing line. Amen.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

..search..

What makes people laugh the most is when you are the one making your own friends and family laugh the hardest they will ever. I've tried many times and some of those times were successful, but I doubt that only a few knew because majority of the laughs are from inside jokes known to only a few who talks to me more. One thing, there was one thing that caught attentions one day. That one day was when Michael Jackson was pronounced dead! Yes, it shocked the world because no one knew that a God given talent man had passed away and he was a legend because of his ability to sing and dance at the same time during a era where it was not popular yet. All that came to my mind was that, how did the people back in the bible reacted to Jesus Christ's death?? I do wonder if they were like some people today who said: "He was a legend and my God." I heard a man said on the news: "Michael was my God!" WOW!! I could not believe or take in the words that were going inside my ears as the man said those four huge words. All that I was able to bare and take in were my God given thoughts.
I wanted to know and see if, What will happen if we were to pursue our faith in God just like the fans of Michael, or us wanting to buy a house right now, or that second, third, or even fourth car that that we are saving up for? What if we were to want and desire God our heavenly father in heaven, only in this world and depended on him for the small things in life and not the big things that would cost us thousands of dollars, loans, and especially debt? I know a family who wanted to buy a house and they worked so hard for that home for a whole year or so and they finally got it. I pondered about their faith? What if the family pursued God, worked in their faith, searched for God, read the bible, prayed, and continued to search for a deeper understanding of God just like how they were searching for a new house then their spiritual life would of been worth more that the new house they are getting.
Who am I to say, and who am I to judge? All I know is that God is the only Judge.

Monday, June 22, 2009

..Thanks..

Thank you God for always being there when hard times and difficult times gets to me. I knew you were always by my side!

I am so thankful to have great friends and family in my life. My gout pains had gone away and I am now playing running and shooting goals freely. I am blessed daily and is loved by a God who gives it freely!

Saturday, June 13, 2009

..Fishing..

So Today I went Fishing even with my Gout Pain on my right foot. It is a early stage of Gout that I am currently going through. Nyiam Koom which is Sunday's Dad gave me some of his prescribed Gout Medicines. I am so thankful for God to provide such sudden help when I needed it. Even with the gout pain in my right foot I still went fishing at New Hogan Lake in Valley Spring, CA. My brother in laws and I caught only three fishes: 2 stripers, and 1 bass. It was a very fun fishing day and I enjoyed it much....sighs....Sadly, I have no Medical Insurance or Health Care on me as of this moment. I am still trying to enroll in M.A.P. which is provided by San Joaquin Medical Center in Stockton. The pills are a plus because it is working for me and the pain is going away. No just the pain, but the swelling is also fading. I know that I am better off on my own right now. What I am talking about is that if I was suppose to be in a relastionship then My Girl Friend woul dbe sacred to death right now. haha....sighs...God, you work in miraculous ways. I don't know how to thank you but say it simply to you in my prayers. You own everything that I have, you are the creator of this world and I don't have anything that is my own because you are my all. G0d, I have nothing without you.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

..ME..

Gout and Diet

Medical Author: William C. Shiel Jr., MD, FACP, FACR
Medical Editor: Jay W. Marks, MD

Learn how diet affects goutGout is a disease that results when crystals of uric acid form in tissues of the body. Gout is characterized by an overload of uric acid in the body and recurring attacks of joint inflammation (arthritis). Chronic gout can lead not only arthritis, but hard lumps of uric acid in and around the joints, decreased kidney function, and kidney stones. Gouty arthritis is usually an extremely painful attack with a rapid onset of joint inflammation. The inflammation is precipitated by the deposition of uric acid crystals in the lining of the joint (synovial lining) and the fluid within the joint. Intense joint inflammation occurs when white blood cells engulf the crystals of uric acid and release chemicals that promote inflammation. The resulting inflammation causes pain, heat, and redness of the joint.


Sadly, this is a Hereditary disease that has been passed by my dad's side of the family. All of his brothers are positive with this disease. My dad is the first of his brothers to die with this disease. As a minority of this great country, my fahter was never given the chance to be treated or given a professional care. Now, I, the son of my father, has this gout disease that is being passed on through me. But I still thank God for all that he has done in my life and this wonderful family that he has given me. There is a way to fight and conquer gout. There are many diet plans and food whihc I will have to give up as a young guy. But I am willing to abide and do what ever it takes to win over this disease. I have full faith and heart in God that he will provide the strenght for me when I need it. My name is anonymus, I am 21 years old, Asian, Follower of Christ, and loves what God has created for he is the creator.

Saturday, May 30, 2009

..they..

What has become true, remains true. The people that does not realize or recognize what is true from you, forgive them and pray for them with a sincere heart. Ask god to love them more and ask God to use you to help them notice what they are missing in life. There has been many countless moments in my life where people do not realize how much I have done for them, how much I care for them, love them, adore, trust, and want to be by their side. But know that God is the main priority and that he gets all the praise and glory. Many times we all want the fame and glory but it really is God who we should all give the honor and praise to.

In life, there will be people who will use you, deceive you, lie to you, cheat, steal, back stab, hate, envy, and play with your life. But do not let them bring you down because of the bad memories you have with them. Know that they got a taste of what good is like in this life time. Know that they got a taste of what love is like. Know that they were blessed by our God who is in heaven. Know that you were use by God to make them notice that our faith in our God is not fake, and our love for them is also not fake but legit.

Have you ever wonder how the other person will feel towards you if you did something god for them? have you ever been in a situation where you knew that they were struggling but you couldn't do anything for them but pray for them? Have you ever known some body where you trusted them and you two were so close but they just left you all of a sudden?

After all these questions, I don't want you to think of all the bad memories and store them up in your heart. I want you to notice too that you are a big inspiration to that person's lives. I don't want you to gather up all the bad things and use it against them, but rather take all the good things and let those good times, memories, and words overcome the hatred and the bad things. I bet you, I bet you there were much more good things than bad ones in your life. So, after talking about all these trials in life don't forget about our God is heaven who loves us all dearly. Be Blessed!

Saturday, May 9, 2009

..His..

Love others, and your loving yourself. Help others, and your helping yourself.


This is some of the few words of wisdom I got from Thunder's Grandpa. I truly know that you are with our God in heaven! You will be miss by many and especially the one whom knew you best in life!

Thursday, May 7, 2009

...when...

HOW DO I MOVE ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

..this..

It saddens me when people don't hold onto their words. But most of all when its the person you thought she was going to be the one who will be by your side forever. It hurts me thinking about all the good times we had together and everything we talked and dreamed of together. It is even worst because she is probably reading this blog right now! But it saddens me more because there are only three people who knows me that visits my page here and actually reads them. None of my other guy friends know that I have a blog spot here. You were everything to me. I thought that our relationship was going to work out. I trusted in God, believed, and prayed every night and day for you and us. I thought that you really wanted this to happen in the first place. Do you remember the talks we had? Do you remember the times we had together? Do you remember how we started out this relationship? Do you remember the prayer we prayed and sealed our relationship with? It is so hard for me to let go like this? I forgive, I still trust you, and I still love you because of God's love for us.

..break..

...sighs...something that I never wanted to hear or see finally happened!



All praise and glory to God!!!!!!!!

Monday, April 27, 2009

..summer..

wow! It has been so long ever since I came back here and wrote something. I suppose it was because God had put someone special into my life and especially made it a memorable year or month for me and her. This time of the year, there were a whole lot of people getting together. What I really mean is that there were many couples who got together and made their wonderfully beautiful vowels and some who are officially a couple and is dating. Simpson has surely changed my life, no, GOD has changed my life and made me into anew being. There were the times where the sweet aromas around me would just fade away and there would seem to have a bitter smell of revenge and hatred flying slowly inside my head and thoughts. Every move and action had to be carefully examined or it would turn out to be a big consequence that I will have to suffer with. But, above all these bad events or bombarded situations that I just went through in a short amount of time I still go to God fro specific direction and forgiveness because he gives it freely and abundantly. All we have to do is ask him with a whole faithful loving heart that God is going to bless you. Faith is believing and trusting in God. We are all seen through God righteous only because of Christ who makes us righteous. I miss being on campus and around Simpson folks right now. But I know that God has his plans for me here in Stockton as of right now so I will pray and look forward into what God has in store for me.

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Friday, March 6, 2009

..Admire..

..see..







Just Imagine.
Look.
Taste.
Take it in.
Think about it.
Just Imagine.
Speak.
Feel.
Walk.
Wonder about it.
Just Imagine.
Pray.
Dream.
Ask.
Imagine.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

..where..

To the place that you go to when no one listens to you. Surrendering everything that you've been through. Hoping to see a change in everyone and yourself. Praying for more blessings each and everyday. What else does this world want to see from us. We are all blinded in so many ways. God, you have made us complete in your eyes. Dancing on and off by yourself. Swiftly you glide through the good times. Sitting all alone when tragedy hits. Looking far beyond your imaginations. To the place that you dream to be. Every move that you, and I take is for a reason. Stepping into the world that has nothing for us. But everything that we have now is what God wants the most. Our undivided attentions and whole heart. Paying too much attention to selfish needs and not enough to what the world does not have. Though it may seem that I have less than others, secretly I have gain so much blessing that I need to get rid of those that is hindering me. Waking up to the bright sunlight that passes by face. Shooting warmth not just to my face, but also to my heart, and soul. Waiting here all alone with the counselor which guides me daily. Can't possibly hate too many things, because God is the creator and maker and rightful owner. All authority belongs to God. All praise and glory to God alone.

Friday, February 13, 2009

..view..

What else can you ask for from God.
What more do you want from Him.
God is constantly blessing me and you.
Overcoming your own fears, and relying on God is hard.
Listening to people's cry hurts me, but it probably hurts God more.
Look, looking is not too hard.
But being able to take the pain in, is hard.
Seeing what the world has to offer you is not so pleasing.
Trying to offer your what you have to the world may not be enough.
But all of that, all of what you have is what God wants from you.
God has been so great to me when I finally gave him everything I had in life.
Living a simple life, not desiring what i don't have.
Cherishing what I have already.
God is so good to me all this year and as of right now,
God is far more better to me than all the time that he has been!!

Saturday, January 24, 2009

..consider..


Like sun rays that passes us by
Like shooting stars that fly's high in the sky
If this moment pass us by
What will we get if we don't abide
Like slow moving water that never returns
Like slow melting snows that comes once a year
If this moment pass us by
What will we get if we don't abide
Like salt that has been poured on meat
Like seeds that needs to luxuriate
If this moment pass us by
What will we get if we don't abide

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

..simp..



Im back in Simpson University and just seeing everyone makes me very happy. not that the break was bad or anything. Well, it was in various ways but I learn a lot from the winter break. Sometimes God really change your life so that you will see his Glory and Love fall down on you. But seeing the familiar faces of students, professors, and co-workers makes me smile. I miss the guy talk that we usually have once or twice a week if we are all available to even bring such subjects or issues up. OF course, this semester we will definitely catch up on the usual talks again late at night. No more eating out late now guys and gals. I vowed to never eat late at midnight again. Many times I do ponder about what if things were suppose to work out and if God did make this person see her reality in His eyes. But, at the same time I do thank God each day that it is His Will and not mines. All praise and Glory to God.

Sunday, January 4, 2009

..show time..


We are like flowers that are being unfold into different life experiences and challenges.We might be put into hard challenges in life, but we have to remember that God is in control and he wants us to let Him be in the center of everything. We will meet new people daily so we should let them see the true beauty of ourselves to them. Let the world know that this beauty that you contain and have is undying and everlasting because our God in heaven has bestowed you his beauty also. We have to be able to accept our different beauty because God wants us to shine in various ways for him so the people in the world who have not seen it yet can be able to see it. Flowers are sometimes thrown away because they did easily or just too fast. We need to grow spiritually together, feeding one another abundantly with the word, and Love of God. Sometimes people don't see what you have to offer them and what you have already offered them. In this case don't feel bad because it is their lost. Do keep encouraging them spiritually, emotionally, and mentally. GOD is always at work in us.



Saturday, January 3, 2009

..now..


Be able to let go of the smallest things in your life to God.
Let God know what you are going through even if it is so small.
You will then learn to let go of bigger things in
your life when you let God know about the smallest ones!