..relieved..

go on with the lie
not knowing that you are dying inside
moving alone as others are too
not knowing those aren't your shoes
remembering all the great times
imitating to be spiritually high
what happen
everything was taken
knowing that my friend wants to be free
yet i stand here and tease
wanting the best for me
i chose to be differently
why be different
God made you different already
my life is full of sin
trying to find a end
confessing
repenting
God forgive me of my sin
i should of known not to give in
all these beautiful ladies you created
they are all beautiful and devoted
so why a guy like me cannot stop the lust inside
i know im not the only one that is sinning alongside
of course every man is struggling
who ever denies it is lying
i rather let my girlfriend know now
because if i wait longer it'll haunt me forever
a sin cannot be ranked
my sin, your sin, it is still sin.

..relating..

So God had delivered me into this world for a purpose..
But I soon discovered that I have forgotten about his love for me.
I have forgotten his words that he has planted in my heart.
I also forgotten that I need to fear only God.
The pasture of peace has been lain in front.
I, not noticing it, has gone astray.
My own paths soon came to be my own fate.
Easing the pain by sinning won't work, that, I learn.
God, redirecting my ways and changing my life.
It is no longer my choice, but God's.