..look..

Hey look, its already the start of Christmas morning.
I was so close to drinking beer with my brother in law yesterday night because it was his son's birthday party and he's my nephew. I wanted to show my brother in law that i was part of the family too by drinking and indulging myself with his way of celebrating. But, there was a few people who i was thinking of that kept me from not drinking that night. Of course GOD, was always in my mind the whole time. Secondly, my family and friends. I don't know why at the time that I was about to drink........sighs.....sadly...this is not getting anywhere. This is who I am.