Harp..

Waiting for your response. 

I am suffocating. 

I want you here with me.

Waiting for a miracle. 

I will be patient.

I am willing.

Waiting for the big day.

I am preparing.

I will be there. 

In Troubled times, I look unto Jesus.
He holds my hand, as I overcome the struggles.
His love covers me, the price has been paid.
I see His crown, the crown of forgiveness.
He has given it to me, I will wear it proudly.

Power of Prayer

Don't try to hide your tears, someone will always notice them...

          Thunder had just finished preaching his sermon and delivering the word of God to the Hmong congregation in Yuba City this afternoon. Everything he said and preached, hit home! I couldn't believe my mind that God used him to reach out to me, and who knows who else?! I was trying so hard to keep in these tears of mine. I was tired, and exhausted. 

          By now, I am suppose to be done with school. I was supposed to have in my possession a BA degree, or certificate displaying my full. But I don't. I never took a Math course in college and that was the last thing for me to accomplish. I've tried to bypass it be taking an MPE Math Proficiency Exam. But I've failed all three times. Sighs, I dropped to my knees in silence. I wanted to yell and burst into tears. But I am not giving up easily. I know I can do it. 

          Right after the sermon, Simeon Frank and I stood on the side of the pews and waited as Thunder's friend flocked him after preaching the world of God. Simeon looked at me and kindly said, "can I pray for you Sao." Right there at the very moment, my tears started to fall like rain drops. I was basically bawling and my nose was running like crazy! I didn't know God was going to use Simeon, a German/Turkish Missionary Kid to pray to me, reach out to me, comfort me, and love over me. But God knew that I needed confirmation that I will accomplish this test. 

          There are times in life where we think its impossible. My dad died when I was only 14 years old. I had to learn how to fix my own bike, fish by myself, fix cars by myself, make my own sling-shot, and discover multiple things on my own. But I thank God for blessing me safety and love. Now, I am blessing other people with my gifts and talents. I've always wished my Dad could have been there with me. But I knew that He was gone, although God was with me at all times, I ignored Him. 

           Evil is always at work, the Good shall never rest. I heard this quote a long long time ago from a movie. Don't remember exactly where. But it put me in check. I always reminded myself that this is true and that evil is luring people away, so I have to continue to be Good. This is a little late, but if you are wondering what Thunder preached on, it was about 2 Corinthians 12:9a "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Use it wisely, and depend on it daily. 

         I realize that we are not that aggressive when the gospel is not popular. But when it is, we tend to rise up and own it! We were bought by the blood of Jesus, and by His atonement free from all sins. What more do we need as proof! Live daily knowing that you are saved if you have asked Him to be your lord and savior. Invite Jesus to sit beside you when you eat, work, and sleep. Ask Him to empower you daily and know that you have the ability to bless others with the blessing that He first blessed you with. 

At this moment...

True feelings are hard to come out.

Finding time of your whereabouts. 

Love is where you are.

Man up to my mistakes.

Let me take you away.

Love is where you are.

About time that I found you.

Making moves to kill the mood.

Love is where you are. 

Summer time is hot and lonely.

Not when you are next to me.

Love is where you are.

I am blessed to be with you Natalie. You are inspirational and always encouraging. I know we have lots to learn from one another. Who could have thought I be here writing about us? I never saw myself with another girl. But when I saw your smile, the laughter, and the free spirit inside of you, it brighten me up. You gave me hope and loved me like no other. God was watching over me and introduced you. I know we both long for the exciting past when we were both in school. I'm sorry it didn't happen sooner in school. haha. I think things could have been different, huh?! 

But I like everything that is happening now. Despite that very fact that I don't get to see you often, I know that you are waiting patiently for me everyday. I see a many dreams and passion withing you. May God continue to bless this relationship and all that we do. May He use both of us to better His kingdom and bring people to Christ. The universe is vast and limitless. It is unknown to mankind. But the love that I have for you, with you, it is immeasurable. 

Midnight Blues...

Have a listen to one of the tunes I made up. God Bless to all!

Time to Jam!

Wow, it has been the longest! But I am almost done with school and trying to fit back in at home. Currently, I have been playing the harmonica and jamming it with my guitar. Who knew I was going to play anyways! I guess its a good thing since everyone else plays the guitar. I suppose there is never too many guitarist. But the harmonica has given me time to express my feelings and inner thought. I never knew such a instrument can calm a soul. Music itself soothing to the ear and universal. I hope you'll pick up a instrument you've always wanted to play. Don't give up so easily, just keep practicing! I remember when I first started to play the guitar, it took me 6 months to strum, pick, and change chords. Our creator gave us the ability and gift of music. Use it to cure, love, and most importantly to praise the one who first loved us, God. 

          - Accepting His Change, is accepting His Power. 

 

Through the eyes of many...

          I'll try to be as clear as possible here. I try to understand people and their origins. I try to look at life through their eyes. I try to love on them and capture the beauty that makes them alive. I know I am not the smartest person or wisest. But what I do have is this mind and heart...I want to understand you all. Every step that I take on campus here at school makes, draws me closer to the students studying with me. I know I can't be in their shoes, or think like them, and talk like them. But I can experience and be there for them when they need me. Maybe it is the complexion of this young Asian American guy that there is a space filled with intimidation. Ha...what is there to be scare of?! My point here is that WE all live life differently. But just take time to see what the other person is going through. Take a look at the unfamiliar eyes and let it soak a little. Don't let the complexion scare you off. 

          Allow every step that you take be a opportunity. Hear the music of the minority, lost, drunk, abused, and even dominant play in your ears. We are all one as Genki Sudo has shown. Through the eyes of many we can change the world. Allowing others to see your view, and you being able to do the same is difficult. But taking a chance and a leap of faith takes us closer to one another. Being able to share commonality and life's struggles is one that we all struggle with. But when we take that moment, just that small moment to observe and soak in the individual's life, I believe that can move us. Just enough, just enough to enlighten us. You see, we all have a spark but where did that spark come from? Who made the spark? Who started the Spark?