Internship

Pastoral Internship here I come!

Tomorrow morning at 8am I will be leaving to Sacramento airport to catch my flight to Minneapolis, Minnesota international Airport. There I will be doing my Pastoral Internship with Rev. Shalahng. I am super excited and nervous all at the same time. I pray that God will us me in His way to help serve and better His kingdom. Four months is the total time I that I will be there. Looking forward in helping the youth, congregation, leaders, elders, and kids as well.

God continue guiding me, teaching, leading, and showing me your way in everything that I do. Everything that I do is for your fame, glory, honor, and praise only. Amen.

summer time

The semester is about to end again for me. Two finals has passed by and I think I did pretty good or decent in them. I still got 2 more final exams to go, 1 exam at 1pmthis afternoon and the last one tomorrow at 8am. Majority of the students started packing up their stuff, books, even some cars seems to be full of belongings already. What ever the situation is I hope that everyone gets home safely. Some of the students are not even leaving yet because they are going on a mission trip and there is team building or training week for them. Some students are staying on campus for free because they are working during the summer for the school. Whoot...good pay I'll say!

This summer I will be heading off to Eau Claire, Wisconsin for my pastoral internship. I am super anxious and there seems to be nothing to describe it. I do know that God has permitted me to go to Eau Claire and He will guide my every way for His glory. God guide me and use me to better your kingdom. Four months is the total time that I will be there. In four months I will be in helping out with the youth group, weekly bible study, a camp, and Hmong(my culture language) sermon once a month.

Sighs. Four months seems long but it will pass by like yesterday. Well, time to study some more for my business and ministry classes. Be blessed fellow brothers and sisters and remember that you are God's beloved!

..long...

I am glad to be home
But sad not to be with someone
I enjoy the smile of people all around me
But I rather make someone smile right now
Watching someone suffer
Waiting to see if something will happen
Not taking that chance to help them
Not knowing that it can be you too
Yelling what your mind desires to say
Yelling and screaming for God's attention
He hears your cry
He is always near by
God is loving all the time
There is nothing else to explain to Him
Testing you to see if you are really there
Here, right now, with me.


Feeling that God is not really with me some of the times. I usually doubt that God will not provide for me anymore. There are so many temptations and trials out there that are haunting me. I can't seem to let everything that had happen in the past go. Well, some of them I've grown to let go of them, but there are my sins that still haunts me till this day. Praying, crying, asking for forgiveness. AIYA!! I know that I am forgiven, but I really need to reconsider his love, and Jesus Christ sacrifice he did for us on the cross. I live out the day pondering about how my future will look like. I probably think too much that is why i am too worry about my future. Sometimes I even think if I will become a pastor or missionary worker. Thinking about the situations in this world, pondering about how the older generations are not willing to change if the younger generation Pastors was suppose to make some few changes in the church. They are still too branded in the old traditions of how to run a church. It is how you run a church, but I believe that you have to learn how to risk a little bit, and make some new adjustments. Stop doing the same thing if there is no improvement. I just pray that there will be soon a change, or at least a vision is given out to someone to see this too. Most of my days now, are just to relax, and await another 4 months of school. I would rather be in school now, but I do love spending time with my family and friends too. Just two more weeks, and there will be countless usage of time with people, studying, tests, projects, reading, and especially being with someone!!