Not like any Summer

          This Summer has been a hard, dry, and bumpy ride. I came home expecting to get a job and finish up on my BA degree. But instead I was hit hard with life obstacles. For some reason, the good always out weighs the bad. My time with Natalie this past weekend at Loma Mar park in Pescadaro, Ca., tide pooling at Natural Bridges Beach in Santa Cruz, Ca., and slow roasting marsh mellows in the backyard of her house, re-creating S'mores with five varieties of chocolate. I wanted time to hold back on counting forward and  forget about the future. I wanted it all to stop right here. But I knew that the next day, things would get better.
          Ah, the salty smell and humidity of the west coast. California did not ask for it. But God placed it there so that the people can enjoy it all and call it paradise. To some, it is just a tourist attraction. To my lovely and  beautiful girlfriend, it is her home. I am in debt to the nicest people in Santa Cruz county. To the Barbers and their lovely hospitable neighbor. To local brewery and diners. The surfers who are always in the 'green zone.' Ah, Santa Cruz and Natalie you have stolen my heart. I would not mind living there one day.
          Have you ever hit rock bottom and not know what to do in life? Have you ever seen or talk to a homeless person ans try to understand them?! I know its not the greatest examples, but the moral of the story is, love others and you'll see love. It's crazy, but true.

Taking Turns

Taking Turns

The day ends by night, and memories are made by people.
Just one stroke of the brush, to paint away our history.
Will it be empty, or filled with little dimples.
Time pushes people, but people push themselves to be better.
Push and shove we go, not noticing the crippled.
Higher and higher we evolve, leaving those behind to wither.
God is a master-mind, He mends our way.

Harp..

Waiting for your response. 

I am suffocating. 

I want you here with me.

Waiting for a miracle. 

I will be patient.

I am willing.

Waiting for the big day.

I am preparing.

I will be there. 

In Troubled times, I look unto Jesus.
He holds my hand, as I overcome the struggles.
His love covers me, the price has been paid.
I see His crown, the crown of forgiveness.
He has given it to me, I will wear it proudly.

Power of Prayer

Don't try to hide your tears, someone will always notice them...

          Thunder had just finished preaching his sermon and delivering the word of God to the Hmong congregation in Yuba City this afternoon. Everything he said and preached, hit home! I couldn't believe my mind that God used him to reach out to me, and who knows who else?! I was trying so hard to keep in these tears of mine. I was tired, and exhausted. 

          By now, I am suppose to be done with school. I was supposed to have in my possession a BA degree, or certificate displaying my full. But I don't. I never took a Math course in college and that was the last thing for me to accomplish. I've tried to bypass it be taking an MPE Math Proficiency Exam. But I've failed all three times. Sighs, I dropped to my knees in silence. I wanted to yell and burst into tears. But I am not giving up easily. I know I can do it. 

          Right after the sermon, Simeon Frank and I stood on the side of the pews and waited as Thunder's friend flocked him after preaching the world of God. Simeon looked at me and kindly said, "can I pray for you Sao." Right there at the very moment, my tears started to fall like rain drops. I was basically bawling and my nose was running like crazy! I didn't know God was going to use Simeon, a German/Turkish Missionary Kid to pray to me, reach out to me, comfort me, and love over me. But God knew that I needed confirmation that I will accomplish this test. 

          There are times in life where we think its impossible. My dad died when I was only 14 years old. I had to learn how to fix my own bike, fish by myself, fix cars by myself, make my own sling-shot, and discover multiple things on my own. But I thank God for blessing me safety and love. Now, I am blessing other people with my gifts and talents. I've always wished my Dad could have been there with me. But I knew that He was gone, although God was with me at all times, I ignored Him. 

           Evil is always at work, the Good shall never rest. I heard this quote a long long time ago from a movie. Don't remember exactly where. But it put me in check. I always reminded myself that this is true and that evil is luring people away, so I have to continue to be Good. This is a little late, but if you are wondering what Thunder preached on, it was about 2 Corinthians 12:9a "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Use it wisely, and depend on it daily. 

         I realize that we are not that aggressive when the gospel is not popular. But when it is, we tend to rise up and own it! We were bought by the blood of Jesus, and by His atonement free from all sins. What more do we need as proof! Live daily knowing that you are saved if you have asked Him to be your lord and savior. Invite Jesus to sit beside you when you eat, work, and sleep. Ask Him to empower you daily and know that you have the ability to bless others with the blessing that He first blessed you with. 

At this moment...

True feelings are hard to come out.

Finding time of your whereabouts. 

Love is where you are.

Man up to my mistakes.

Let me take you away.

Love is where you are.

About time that I found you.

Making moves to kill the mood.

Love is where you are. 

Summer time is hot and lonely.

Not when you are next to me.

Love is where you are.

I am blessed to be with you Natalie. You are inspirational and always encouraging. I know we have lots to learn from one another. Who could have thought I be here writing about us? I never saw myself with another girl. But when I saw your smile, the laughter, and the free spirit inside of you, it brighten me up. You gave me hope and loved me like no other. God was watching over me and introduced you. I know we both long for the exciting past when we were both in school. I'm sorry it didn't happen sooner in school. haha. I think things could have been different, huh?! 

But I like everything that is happening now. Despite that very fact that I don't get to see you often, I know that you are waiting patiently for me everyday. I see a many dreams and passion withing you. May God continue to bless this relationship and all that we do. May He use both of us to better His kingdom and bring people to Christ. The universe is vast and limitless. It is unknown to mankind. But the love that I have for you, with you, it is immeasurable. 

Midnight Blues...

Have a listen to one of the tunes I made up. God Bless to all!