Healing days...

Never could imagined to lose you so soon,
Why in haste of a full moon.

Rain of tears fall everywhere,
Some have shoulders, others are in fear.

Singled out by many ideas of this world,
Let no man come to take what the Angels have sung to in ears.

It has been a while since I've written or blogged. This semester has been a roller coaster ride of emotions, relationships, and school work. I am trying very hard to control everything and make everything sound and look good. But I am wrong for trying. I should pursue the peace and quiet time with God. Jesus did the same thing right after he healed the man with the demon. He went to a place of solitude and prayed. Today at Risen King Church of Redding, Ca; Pastor Bill Randall preached on the series called, "Kingdom Tensions."
We live life trying to please and fulfill something. But why do we do that?! Isn't love from God enough? The only fulfillment we need is, to know that we are loved by God! I am guilty at this and am trying to keep this in my heart and mind. This is my last year here, God use me to better your kingdom, teach me, and guide to be a better servant. May my brothers and sisters continue to love you and your people more and more each day. Amen.

Rising tide of Emotions, making its way to this Island.
The full moon guides its path, and night fall cools it down.
Stranded boat in the sea, captain of the ship losing control.
Rising tide of Emotions, making me sea sick.
The Sun burns with fury, as my heart burns with passion.
Simply loving one person, yet that person does not want.

Just My Luck...

I have been told: "Any girl that gets you, will be a lucky girl."

I suppose no one wants to be lucky.

Letter to...

Would you understand if I wrote you a letter,
Or would it cost me another heart break.
Would you understand how I feel for you,
or would you take me for a fool.

Another letter to cure someone's heart,
Another chance to prevent a mishap.
Another person in search of love,
Another tear to be wiped away.

Would a letter be needed,
to take away your sorrows.
Or would it take song,
that sings you to sleep.

And now I sit and wait,
worried about you.
Wondering and pondering,
holding a pen on top of this letter.

Don't tempt Me...

Be strong and move on,
look forward and run.
Yield and put on a shield,
don't hesitate to be filled.
Life is surely a challenge,
but continue to be a champion.
What is fun without the sun,
Be strong and move on.

"I'm home, alone again."

The drive home was not fun at all today. I can still hear the tire eating away the pavement as I drive it. The tread shrinking away. The loud music is keeping me calm and focus on the road. The ongoing thought of "Will I make it home?" runs through my mind every minute. Steadily controlling the wheel and making sure I don't go into another lane. I drop speed when I think my tire is drifting too much. My eyes gazing on and off the gas gauge, making sure I have enough gas home. The other drivers are minding their own business while I drive this vehicle that can break down any second. The endless prayers continues as I got home and parked my car in front of the house. Nice and slow as I approach the front door, awaiting a welcome home.

"Be Hopeful."