Within ME

Learning how to resist,
Learning how to persist.
Waiting for an answer,
Waiting patiently.
In search of Truth,
In need of Use.

"I have to overcome my own ambitions. I have to wait."

Random facts...

Random Fact #1: God healed me from Gout
Random Fact #2: I am too simple & cheap
Random Fact #3: I'll eat anything that will not kill me (not a picky eater!)
Random Fact #4: I like to sit and watch the sun set & rise
Random Fact #5: Favorite colors are...Green, Blue,and Khaki
Random Fact #6: Willing to learn anything
Random Fact #7: I enjoy the outdoors
Random Fact #8: God brought
Random Fact #9: I like to fix things
Random Fact #10: I've dyed my sister's hair/streaked it for her at least four times

2011 Spring Break

As I gather my thoughts for Spring Break there is the restless nights of partying and what reality T.V. has shown me. My Spring Break started early within the month. Countless movie nights with netflix, all nighters, Carl's Jr., Dennys, and catching God's flash light(The Sun). Sighs...how I have not discover this earlier. Great friends, permanent study time, and memories filled with laughter, tear drops, stories, testimonies, and prayers.

In reality, my Spring Break will be fill with working 8 hours a day for the entire break. Its not about the money, its about keeping myself busy and doing what I am best at(Janitorial Work). Well that is not the only thing I'm good at. I believe there are other things I am pretty good at besides janitorial jobs. Sadly to say, I am too good at breaking my own heart. It is better to say, "At least I am not breaking a Gal's Heart."

On the other hand, my spring break begins with the journey of all nighters, movies with my loving friends, and then camping. The rain has made its home in our town. Needless to say, it is home to all. Have you've noticed that home was not mention? I have no excuses.

Time awaits me
Time wakes me
Excuses score
Excuses no more
Friends or Foe
Friends of Love
Boy do I know
Boy do I cry
God is here
God is there
God is everywhere

Yours...

Everything I have is yours
From big to small
On earth & to the stars
What have I made from my own two hands?
Nothing but my own desires
Come & have your way

What more can I ask from you God
You blessed me with abundance grace & love
What lives in me is your Son
My savior Jesus Christ

..ezama..

Like snow that melts away, may our sadness pass away.
Like trees that grow fiercely, may we grow together without ceasing!
Look at the sun as it rise, can I stay by your side.
Look at how the flowers bloom, may our love fill such room.
I thank God for a beautiful lady, during the summer’s late night waiting.
I am happy to be with you, may our love be bonded like glue.
My Love, My Love, you will always be beautiful, in God’s eyes and in Mine.

...Consider this....

Before I start out writing my heart or mind out, here is something that I got out of today, "Accepting God's power is accepting His Change." This thought came to mind because in class we were discussing about repentance. Just wanted to share that you y'all.

Switch of subject. So today was super cold for me at school. I had on a good layer of clothing but it was still cold. I asked one of my Hmong friends from Nebraska is this is cold for him and he said, "its alright." I also asked him how cold does Nebraska get, "Dude, way colder" is what he said.

In the meanwhile I was reading: Luke 9:1-3 Jesus Sends Out the Twelve
1 When Jesus had called the Twelve together, he gave them power and authority to drive out all demons and to cure diseases, 2 and he sent them out to proclaim the kingdom of God and to heal the sick. 3 He told them: “Take nothing for the journey—no staff, no bag, no bread, no money, no extra shirt.

After reading this passage and reflecting upon it, I concluded that Jesus gave healing power and authority to the disciples. We all know that they received His power and authority and went out just like that. Yes...just like that. But it is harder for all of us to this nowadays. I think it is harder for the Hmong Churches and Christians, to see God's healing power. Come guys and gals lets go out and start healing with all that Christ gave to us. Easier said than done. Yes, I know.

I am 23, and positive with Gout. If you don't know what Gout is check out the link provided here: http://www.niams.nih.gov/Health_Info/Gout/gout_ff.asp

Long story short, I am healed from gout just like that. My friend prayed for me and immediately I was healed. How do I know? Well, just to make it short and simple I ate certain food that will trigger the attacks. Its almost like having food allergy. So my friend and I bought some colossal shrimp and made some curry with it. I ate 6 shrimps and waited to see if anything would happen. Two days has gone by and nothing. I waited and waited and still nothing. Praise God!....as I got up one morning. I also went to a Bethel healing service where I was a bit skeptical about. But the day before the service I prayed to God saying that, "The women who touched Jesus' cloak was healed, why do I have such small faith."

I finally realized that God's healing power is sufficient and given at anytime at any moment. Sometimes we might be one more prayer away from getting healed. God's healing power is available for anyone out there. Jesus went to the unwanted, poor, drunkard, and cast out and served them. Are we being Christ like? Are you avoiding His Power ad Authority? Remember this, the Holy Spirit that lived in Paul, the Disciples, and Apostles, is the same one that lives in you today!

...Just once more...

So I've picked up the sport or activity disc golf. I never knew such a thing existed until my internship in Eau Claire, WI; which lead me to countless games and experiences with my friends and cousins. After the internship I returned to school and decided to buy some disc of my own at play it again store. It is great place for beginners with great prices for sports wears and gears. I got some discs and called up my friend Chao for a few rounds. We both knew that our school had a course, but we were noobies for sure. WE had no directions of the holes and tee off sections. Of course we did not play by ourselves; we decided to invite some of our friends to come along.

When we all got to the course, we met Robin and his friend playing already. We asked him if he did not mind, to show us the course and he did. We played two rounds total and I ended with a +0 the first round, and then +2 on the last. Sighs...this course was so difficult to play on. The thick trees, creeks, hills, and shining sun made it challenge for such a noob like me. I knew that this new sport or activity was going to bring great time for the guys to chat and bond. What I did not know was that it was going to be an addiction.

Days after our first game together, I set out for a practice round all by myself. I made a few birdies and pars. I was really proud of myself and wanted to play with the guys. Moments later, a friend off mine called and said he wanted to play a round. A round went to two, then to three. I told the guys I had to go and that it was getting late. The sunset was cast out it in the open and the sky was being painted with purple. Sighs, what a beautiful painting.

Sometimes we don't admit to our addictions, sins, and faults. We all need to admit to it and correct our self before it is too late. Too late that many lies have covered it up. Too late that we lost trust, love ones, and our self image. The bible teaches many things and rebukes many. People have studied the bible for many years. lets look at it this way for once, instead of studying it...live by it, speak God's words, breath His truth, think of His thoughts, and thirst for it. I still have a hard time doing this, but I will not grow if I have no one to share it with. Just once more.